Do drugs make you happy? According to this they do.

Strolling across the web today and I landed on this diagram. I have not verified any of the information contained within it, but found it to be very interesting nonetheless.

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Michael Vick & "Celebrity Justice" in general

It's been a minute since I last blogged and I think this subject is a great one to hop back on the blogwagon about. My friends have varied opinions on the Mike Vick situation. And while I respect BOTH sides, I have to explain why my opinion is what it is. This does NOT mean that I want my opinions to be those of my friends. THAT would be boring to say the least & then what would we have to debate about? =P

I've said it time and time again, the perks of being a celebrity extend far beyond that of the money, fame & all the free stuff in those "gifting rooms". When celebrities break the law, it is then that we can see the additional perks come into play. Celebrity Justice is nothing new. I mean, I could use R.Kelly as a reference FOR DAYS on end. This guy has yet to have his day in court, and if the case continues to get pushed back as it has, he probably never will. I mean, he's (allegedly) on TAPE having sex with the girl, right? What more do you need? The losers on "To Catch A Predator" are on tape doing much less, and I see those cases done and guys sentenced faster than lightning. What's the difference? STATUS.

I think what bothers me about Vick's situation, is everyone's sense of entitlement for him. As if serving his jail sentence is punishment enough because he's SOOOO GOOD at what he does. I say EFF THAT. How many other convicts have "served their time" and can just return to the life they had before as if nothing happened? Why would it be SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO WRONG for Mr. Vick to have to pay an ADDITIONAL price for his actions (or lack of judgment)?

I mean, seriously, I've never held a job that paid me 7 figures. But you best believe that with EVERY job in my adult life, I've THOUGHT twice before making ANY decisions that could affect the stability of said job. Why? Because if I didn't, I'd have no one to blame aside from myself. Personally, I think that for Vick to ALLOW this to happen, he was NOT thinking about the long term affects of his actions.

I agree that NONE of us know the whole story. But what we DO know, is that whether he was directly or INDIRECTLY involved, he CHOSE to be and THAT is where he went wrong. I'm not rich, or famous, but I know that I can't go hanging out with childhood friends on the "block" with the "homies" anymore. I also know that things I may have done as a kid are not worth the RISK now that I am adult. I know where that road will take me, and I CHOOSE to distance myself from things that could get me into unpleasant situations.

No, I didn't ALWAYS know that and YES I had to learn the hard way. Maybe THAT'S part of why I feel Vick should be no different. And yeah, yeah, blah, blah...he did his time, but the mere fact that he's even ALLOWED to return to the NFL is enough to be thankful for. How dare anyone whine about an additional suspension when this f*cker is going to be making millions again very soon?

Do you think you could have a public criminal investigation, be found guilty, sentenced and then return back to work like "Hey guys! I'm back!"?? Seriously? Quit the whining about whatever else this guys gets and just be happy his ass is back in the saddle. We all make mistakes, but as long as we learn from them, they can be SOOO worth it. He pissed off A boatload of people with this whole animal abuse thing, and if making him SUFFER just a BIT more is what it takes to appease them, so BE IT. Let's not even get started on the SUFFERING those dogs had to endure.
Cry me a river, Vick & Vick-riders.

DONE.

Back...Back...Back

Wow...I haven't been bloggin' much. But that's all about to change. But I have good news. I got a laptop! And a new laptop means NEW BLOGS. Wait, no. New AND frequent blogs! New, frequent & entertaining blogs!

Starting with the next blog. I have other stuff to take care of right now...

"You screwed up" - By Mike

Ok, this is a rare occasion. I'm posting something NOT written by yours truly and instead posting a blog written by one of my dearest MySpace friends. He really spoke the truth in this one. So much so, I wanted to print it out and put it on a few vehicle windshields. (But I won't...LOL)

And check out Mike's MySpace by clicking above on the blog title and ADD him! Also, check out his website, mikeink.com that is packed with hilarity by way of comments, pics & layouts!
It's over there ----------> in my LINKAGE section.
And now...Mike's blog:


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Ok so here's what I don't get.

The nastiness. The ease with which people let racist and offensive comments fall out of their mouths about Barack Obama. So many people in my opinion who look away from the negative things they may have done, too cowardly to face the mistakes they may have caused by voting for the wrong president in the past.

John McCain lost this election because he assumed American women were so shallow that if he tossed a female into the ring anyone with a vagina would vote for him. Why aren't all the loud mouthed finger pointers screaming their frustrations about John McCain's GIGANTIC misjudgment? That is why he lost. If he had chosen Mit Romney he probably would have won.

If you were a decent person you'd be disappointed in your candidate for making a really bad decision. But you can't admit that. You aren't a fair person. You can only now express your disgust for the candidate that won because your team lost, and for good reason.

Your team lost because you put George Bush into the White house......twice.

The truth is many people in this country are afraid. If you are straight and white and moderately well off financially, then you have never had to question otherwise. The ONLY thing that makes you nervous is when people who are not exactly like you want a fair shake.

What might that mean to your lifestyle?

There are people who are different. There are different beliefs and cultures. Not everyone is Christian.

Ask yourself this honestly. Are you respectful of people who are different or do you insist that they follow your rules and social behavior? How do you feel about people who are not Christian? Do you feel you have the right to insist they live by your beliefs? Are you truly a kind and compassionate person or do you pretend to be, saying please and thank you because it's what good people do?

After the past eight disastrous years how can anyone who participated in creating this mess honestly have the nerve to tell anyone who they should vote for?

John McCain didn't just lose, he was SLAUGHTERED. Because Americans are sick of the same old bullshit. Point your angry little accusatory fingers at yourselves because YOU created this mess. If a Democrat in office makes you angry, have the courage to admit that is was because you made the horrible mistake that swayed Americans in the other direction.

Til it's gone...

I refuse to take a step back. Mom always said that the past is the past for a reason and should be treated as such. If I made a conscious decision to let something go, there is no logical reason to allow it back into my life.

If you are at peace, don't negate your own feelings to spare the feelings of someone else.

Love those who love you...and appreciate the experiences you've had, but remember they are just that: EXperiences.

"On and on we seem to go...but you don't know what you've got til it's GAWN..."

Alot of my former friends reach out to me...and I can't help but think twice before shutting them down. Guess that's the sensitivity of a Cancer in me...

But, as I've gotten older, and matured...I've stopped allowing people to use me and it has become easier to say: "It's too late...."

Paris Hilton for President

I put Paris Hilton in the same category as "New York" from Flavor of Love. (MaiTye's Guilty Pleasures) I am highly entertained by some of the things they do, but usually i'm just like "HOW/WHY is she famous??".

I was entertained by this vid-yo.

To die or not to die? - The Death Penalty

So i'm sitting here watching CNN with the hubby and the subject matter isn't great at all. Some a-hole raped, beat & murdered two teenage girls 15 years ago and he's scheduled to be put to death in Texas...TONIGHT.

Here's the thing: 10 years after he was convicted, he decides to tell everyone that he's a mexican national. (Whatever that means)----(Wait, I did some research!) Basically, this means that this jack@ss was entitled to access the mexican consulate after he was arrested and because he was denied that access, his attorneys argue that Texas should allow him to have a new trial. But, the thing is: Neither the rapist-bastard or his attorney ever told ANYONE that he was NOT an american! To me, it seems like folks are just trying to save this sadistic bastard from dying tonight and nothing more. Gee Dubya even tried to pull his presidential card in an attempt to save this guy, but because the Supreme Court upheld the ruling...the state of Texas replied(loosely quoted): "With all due respect, Mr.Prez...you have no jurisdiction here." I love it!!!

Any opinions on the death penalty? As if you can't tell from the tone of this blog, i'm a STRONG believer in "Let the punishment fit the crime." In my opinion, the punishment FITS.

If you don't agree...chew on this: This a-hole bragged about the rape/murders to his friends and even showed off a Mickey Mouse watch belonging to one of the victims.

Invisi-Vlog Update

Update - 7/16 from MaiTye on Vimeo.

Friends....How many of us have them?

I am disappointed in my friends right now...

Like...seriously...

Why, you ask?

Because no one told me that NEW KIDS ON THE BLOCK came back!!!!

Can we say AWESOME???!!! I know i'm not the only one that crushed on Donnie(middle).

Love, Hate & Indifference

You know what I hate?

When someone points the finger at you without realizing that they need to look at themselves and make some changes.

When someone doesn't realize they aren't as smart as they'd like to think, yet they treat you as if you lack intelligence in comparison. (My intelligence and/or your lack thereof isn't debatable)

When someone refuses to be accountable for their own actions.

The fact that I haven't blogged since 4/5/08.

You know what I love?

My inherent ability to completely detach from emotional strain...

Positive reinforcements.

New beginnings & second chances.

My wonderful, understanding husband & family.

You know what I'm indifferent about?

The fact that I have ended what was once an awesome friendship.

How I am perceived by those who don't directly affect my life, heart and/or finances.

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That's all...I know...it's been damn near 2 months and this was the best I could do? Yep. Get over it. =)

Like OMG...I so don't wanna pack

We don't even have THAT much to actually PACK, per se'...since we came to Vegas in my car with just clothes and essentials...(computer & gaming system = essentials)

It is NOW that I regret selling all of our furniture because I don't wanna have to BUY a shitload of stuff all over again. But that's ok. I'm still EXCITED! And you can expect a video of me walking around the empty condo VERY SOON. Anyhoooo...this blog is pretty silly, as it is merely another attempt at stalling on the packing that I DO need to finish...

I will go now.

To MySpace...then Twitter...then MaiTye.tv...then Yahoo Mail...and then...

I will pack.

Appreciate...

I think it's the only child in me that has the need to be #1. By #1, I mean...if I cut for you...I need to always feel like i'm #1 in your world. Not in relation to my friends, because that's childish...but when it comes to matters of the heart, if at any point I don't get the feeling that you consider me a priority...I drift away. Where do I drift? That remains to be seen.

One thing i've been learning lately is that change, while difficult, is inevitable and it's up to us to decide if we want to embrace it or fight it. I'm tired of fighting it and I want to do what's right for myself and my future.

No one person can possess EVERYTHING you need, for that would make them perfect. And because I am riddled with my own imperfections, I must be cautious when I begin to belittle someone because of thiers. Seeking perfection will lead to disappointment, and in actuality...the closest thing to perfect for me...has already been found. Sometimes all it takes is a little dose of reality which one can be injected with at any given moment. I had several injections of reality this week. And while the injections were more than likely unintentional, the prick of that hypothetical needle didn't go unnoticed. As I've stated in several blogs, all things happen for a reason and I believe the changes going on in my world right now will be OH SO BENEFICIAL.

Anything worth having takes WORK. So sometimes we have to roll our sleeves up and MAKE it do what it do. I'm thankful that I haven't waited too late.

Just because...

I was having a discussion today with a few coworkers about children and how parents choose to raise them. One of the coworkers mentioned that a person who doesn't have kids should basically shutup when it comes to discussing the matter. I found that to be hilarious.

Why? Well...becoming a parent doesn't always make one an "authority" on child-raising. In fact, that theory could be applied to many things in life. I've never been a police officer, so I can't speak on how I feel about police officers. I've never flown a plane, so God forbid I voice an opinion on pilots drinking and flying. Hey wait! If someone has never been married then by all means, they should STFU when discussing marriage!! Yeah...sounds ridiculous, doesn't it? If we only had opinions on things we had actually experienced what a bland existence this would be!

In any case, one could easily watch the news or perhaps Nancy Grace and get a dose of reality when it comes to parenting and the lack of "spontaneous parental abilities" that some may think producing children provides. There are people that have numerous children who FAIL at parenting. There are people with one child that FAIL at parenting. There are kid-free family members who step in to raise these "parents" children and SUCCEED, so how is it...I wonder, that they do so? Who's to say that people without children have no insight into child-raising? If nothing else we can reflect on some of the things our parents did while raising us, understand how those things may have positively or negatively affected us and possibly form opinions on the matter. I guess child psychologists and Nanny's aren't actually good at what they do until they reproduce. (Did Dr.Spock have kids? I read somewhere that he didn't and people bought the SHIT outta his books!) I guess creating a small being in your likeness really IS next to Godliness, as some people think they are high and mighty just because they've done so.

Wow...my fingers were on a roll there...LMAO. In closing...I just think it's absurd to discredit someone's opinion because they had the foresight to THINK about what was best for them and NOT to bring another life into this world. In fact, I'd venture to respect someone a thousand times more for the fact that they didn't haphazardly reproduce knowing they weren't ready or fully capable of providing a BETTER life for their child than they had themselves. Accidents happen. Those accidents should not be children.

Ah well, that's my kid-free opinion...it may not mean shit to some, but it's worth a shitload to me and I HAD to get it out. That, my readers, is what MaiTye-Uncut is all about. Woooo-Saaaah.

MaiTye OUT.

Partial determination = Partial success

I haven't been working out(technically...LOL)...and I still don't eat COMPLETELY the way I should. In fact my idea of heading toward a healthier lifestyle meant replacing my Sausage McMuffins with french toast sticks OR skipping breakfast altogether. OR, eliminating SODAS and sticking to juices, teas and water. BUT, I am CERTAINLY not drinking 8 glasses of water a day. While I have limited myself to turkey, chicken & fish since 1/1/08...I still have to FORCE myself to increase my veggie intake. I do eat alot of fruit, however I could still be doing MORE to "bring sexy back in '08".

The title of this blog is referring to the aforementioned paragraph and the fact that as of TODAY, I have lost 4 pounds and gone down 1 size in my clothing. Imagine how MUCH more of a difference I would see if I REALLY TRIED. I'm way too indifferent in my approach, yet I KNOW where I want to be...so it's time to crank it up a notch.

I'll keep you posted!

3/15/08 - Randomosity

Too much of you isn't enough. I can't explain what it is that you do to me, but I know that you bring something out in me. What that is, I don't know. But...I love it. Do I love you? Without a doubt I do. Enough of you? Never. There should be a million of you. I'd never get tired of meeting you. Greeting you. Explaining to you that I'm needing you.

My addiction...you are. I breathe peacefully when i'm with you. Dream of seeing you when i'm without you. Always thinking about you. You...make me weak but these feelings are strong. I've said too much...I won't go on.

Post-packing Randomosity

Welp...I finally finished packing. I'm such a procrastinator. I'm going to visit my FAVORITE cousin 2morrow and it is LONG overdue! To say I moved back to the west coast all the way from Tex-ass in JULY, I certainly haven't seen enough of my peeps. And the ones that I have seen, well hell...I haven't spent as much time with them as I would have liked.

In ANY case, i'm really excited about seeing my cousin and his fam. We're more like brother and sister than cousin and I really admire his drive and determination. So, I guess...maybe we AREN'T like brother and sister because I'm a total slackass. LOL

Good work day today...filled with hilarity and I even took a pic featuring the awesome "fist under chin" business pose that Uncle Rico also used in Napoleon Dynamite.




You can pretend it isn't awesome if you want to. You'll be fooling no one aside from yourself.

Anyhoooooz...I was just kinda bored, and the hubby was watching the Laker game, so I said to myself: "Self, why dontcha BLOG a bit? Tell your readers that you're gonna be outta town and therefore not as accessible via the internet as usual." And as you can see...I followed my own advice! Lucky for you.

I've gotten a few emails asking why I don't enable comments on this blog. Welp, I don't want to. This blog isn't so much for interacting...I use my MySpace blog for that. I tend to at least ATTEMPT to entertain my friends when I post on MySpace, however this blog...if you haven't noticed yet, is chock full of nonsensical ramblings. It's UBER therapeutic for me to just type whatever I happen to be feeling at any given moment and that's why I don't want or need to enable the comments. I do welcome and appreciate the emails you guys send me though.

I can always be reached @ the following addresses:

maitye8479@yahoo.com
maityedottv@yahoo.com

And by all means, click the maitye.tv link at the top ^^^^ or right. ------->

That's pretty much it for now. My eyelids are actually getting heavy, so I guess I've rambled enough! Toodles. =)

Regrets...

How many things have you done in your life that you actually REGRET? I mean, think about it. If I had to answer that question...I'd say none. Realistically...absolutely NONE. I know that seems impossible, so allow me to elaborate.

I've made PLENTY of mistakes in my 28 years on this earth. All of which I have learned from. And if I hadn't made the mistakes, I wouldn't be as swift as I am today. Therefore...I have no regrets. For every action, there is a reaction. And for every bad decision, we learn how to make better decisions in the future. I'm a graduate of the S.O.H.K (School of Hard Knocks). In fact, I have a Masters Degree. What that means is that sometimes I deliberately make a mistake with the sole intention of learning from it. Crazy...I know.

New VLog: Know it all's...

Rant Two from MaiTye on Vimeo.

Awesome Quote of the Day

What I want is to be needed. What I need is to be indispensable to somebody. Who I need is somebody that will eat up all my free time, my ego, my attention. Somebody addicted to me. A mutual addiction.

~ Unknown

What then?

If and when I choose an extra-curricular activity...It's because I need something to spice up my life, or in a sense...give me something else to do.

Obviously, the purpose of the extra-curricular is to alleviate boredom or to make up for what's lacking. So what happens if I become bored with the extra-curricular or if it too becomes lackadaisical?

WHAT THEN?

Well. One would assume it's easy enough to simply replace said activity with another. But to me, that could become quite another issue altogether. I tend to lose interest somewhat easily if I am not constantly stimulated. After all...stimulation keeps the blood flowing. So, replacement...while it is a very real option, is not on the top of my list.

Then there's always re-evaluation & modification. But...if I were to re-evaluate & modify my extra-curriculars, why can't I do the same for my primary issues, thus killing the need for the extra-curricular in the first place? Interesting.

Finally, and usually favored by procrastinators and the uber-naive...Waiting it out. Hoping that things will improve on their own, or that they have only taken a short trip to boredom town, and will be back on track shortly. It is based on my experience that this method RARELY works.

So...again, I ask...WHAT THEN??

What is it?

So I hung out with an old friend yesterday. The same friend that I mentioned a few blogs back. The one who I used to be really close with, that now lives right in the same neighborhood as I do.

We were talking about all the things we had been thru, people we had encountered, and places we had been. We were having an extremely deep and philosophical conversation and then he asked, "What year did we meet?" Without hesitation I said "1994" and we both were kinda in awe.

14 years...

We've been friends for 14 years.

We fell out of touch for about 5 years, and we've picked up as if we never fell out. At first I was worried that it would be awkward...because after all, we had a romantic, albeit non-sexual friendship from 94 and beyond. And although we never consummated our romantic-friendship, there was always the underlying desire to try it out and make it happen. But when we started hangin' again, it was obvious that we could be just that...FRIENDS. We are in two different places, but still...I love this guy.

He's in love with the woman of his dreams...and I'm happily* married, so it's not awkward at all. It's two old friends, hanging out.

He even made a joke about what MIGHT have been. "We could have a 14 year old kid right now." I laughed and replied..."We sure could, but THANK GAWD we don't."

Can you imagine??? OMG...I still don't know if kids are in the cards for me. I really, really don't have the patience for them. In fact, the idea of having to provide for someone that COULD ultimately grow up to resent me is unfathomable at BEST. Someone said it perfectly today..."Kids are 18 year pimps." That they are...
And beyond...

GIMME YA MONEY, BITCH!

Check this out, Crumb Snatcher...I will do no such thing.

I'm kinda sleepy...and very glad that my weekend starts NOW...I love having Sun/Mon off...it's so sweet. I'm home alone, except for Cali...so I'm gonna enjoy the snore-free peace while I have the space and opportunity.

Goodnight.

Tonight's randomosity has been brought to you by the letters M & J.

I'm not missing you at all...

So, it's been awhile since we've been together. Not long to some, but plenty of time to me. I thought it would be harder to say goodbye to you, but now that you've been gone, I realize...I'm not really missing you at all.

It happens that way, I guess. When something isn't really good for you, I believe you possess the power to condition your brain into accepting that not having it is for the best. What I lack in willpower, I make up for in hindsight. And it is for this very reason that i'm pretty positive I won't ever have the desire to indulge in you again.

Rant One - VideoBlog

Rant One from MaiTye on Vimeo.

My Vlogs now have an INTRO!

So, now that I'm gonna start putting my vlog ideas to work, I decided to create an intro vlog.
It's only about 15 seconds. Enjoy!

My California weekend...

So, I went to Cali this weekend for my grandma's 78th birthday. After hangin' with the fam, we hung out with one of my highschool friends and eventually ended up at Roscoe's Chicken & Waffles. Upon getting out of the car, some random dude tells us "Don't be shame, buy an UMBERELLA for five dollas!" Yes...umbErella. That's how he said it. *sigh*

We got there at around midnight, and after waiting for about 7 minutes...we were seated. It's INSANE how loud it was in there. I mean REALLY loud. But damnit, the food is so worth it.

My friend drives like a bat out of hell, and on top of that it was RAINING donkeys and horses. I said a quick prayer that we'd make it back to granny's alive and thank goodness we did.

It was a pretty short trip. Being that we drove down on saturday morning and left on sunday morning. And the best part? (sarcasm to follow) When we arrived back in Vegas, at the state line...I smashed my right index finger in the door of the truck. And now it's PURPLE! Sweet!!!

I saw Juno today...and it rocked!

So this weekend, I saw Clovefield & Juno. Let's talk about Juno first, since it was my inspiration for this video(above). Not only was it an awesomely fantastic movie, but it had a super fuckin' awesome soundtrack, which I immediately had to download after seeing the movie. MUST SEE!

Cloverfield...what can I say about Cloverfield? It was...different. The camcorder thing was REALLY annoying at first. And if movies weren't $10.50 out here, I may have walked out during the first few minutes. Not only that, but there were BIG warning signs before purchasing the tickets advising you that the camera shots could cause motion sickness and therefore there would mos def be NO refunds as you were warned in advance. In any case...it wasn't that bad. Not as awesome as Juno...but overall, not that bad.

Hey there Obama

Be careful what you ASK for...

Because when you ask for what you NEED, you may get just that. And what you NEED isn't always what you WANT...

I am totally encompassed in disbelief right now...but at the same time I'm channeling the cliche-riddled motto i've been repeating for the last several weeks:

"Whatever will be, will be. So one must enjoy the moments while they last and let things go when they are gone. It may hurt for awhile...but...So is life."

I can only hope that this feeling is a temporary one, and I can go back to being the ME that i've always been and continue to live by the motto that I've ALWAYS embraced:

Live...Love...Laugh...and most importantly...LEARN.

(Live your life...Love your people...Laugh at yourself and Learn from your experiences)

Hmmm...I totally just figured out what my next tattoo will be.

Awesome.

I don't care

I used to worry...

Worry about whether or not my actions would influence the way others might view me.

I worried that if I didn't completely surrender to the status quo...i'd be viewed as...well, alot of different things.

I don't worry anymore.

I do me.

If I feel ok with my decision, it's done.

I think that's why I don't have children...I think that's why i'm in NO rush to have them.

I'm pretty sure I couldn't completely succumb to this outlook on life if someone else's life depended on my actions.

Don't get me wrong...I still think before I act. (most of the time)

But I don't overanalyze myself anymore.

"What will he/she/they think of me if I...?"
"If I do that, they they might think i'm..."
"Why would they wanna be bothered with me if...?"

Fuck that...love me or leave me. I'm gonna be here regardless.

Q & A with MaiTye

From time to time I get random emails asking random questions about my life or just me in general. Alot of these questions just don't get answered and since i'm sitting here at work, doing nothing(for the moment)I've decided to answer some of the FAQ's. Let's get started shall we?

1) Why is your details section missing on your MySpace page?
- Because I no longer wanted my page private, but there are some things in my details section that not ALL of MySpace needs to see.

2) What do you do in your spare time?
- In my spare time I like to spend time with my friends and family, travel, Ebay it, brainstorm and wait for it, wait for it...BLOG/VLOG.

3) Can I have your phone number?
- Uh, no.

4) What happened to that website you started with your friend in Texas?
- Well, it eventually was shut down due to the fact that said friend and I were on two different wavelengths regarding running a successful website. I do NOT miss that headache at all.

5) Why did you move to Vegas?
- To live closer to my family. Most of my immediate family is on the West.

6) Why was there an ad for grits in one of your Vlogs?
- That's a LOOONG story/inside joke that you will probably NEVER have the pleasure of knowing.

7) Why did you add me to your myspace page that only has like 20 friends instead of the page that has ALL of your friends?
- Because I don't want you all up in my bizness!

8) Why do you use so many metaphors in your blogs?
- Because I feel like it. LOL, kidding. I've always used metaphors because I love em, and also because they sometime go over the heads of those who are not on my level of intellectuality...so, in the event that one of these individuals(that shall remain nameless) were to read any of my blogs...they would NEVER have a clue as to what I was REALLY talking about. Keeping it honest with you...there's really only ONE person that I KNOW OF that I would think isn't on my level of intellectuality and he NEVER reads anything I write, but this is pretty much for the "just in case".

9) What are your goals in life?
- To finish my first novel and for that novel to be well-received. Then move on to my second novel, all the while working with someone who can help me turn my first novel into a motion picture. I'd like my novel-writing/movie making aspirations to run concurrently with my additional aspiration of somehow finding financial stability withOUT working for someone else. I have yet to figure out how I'm gonna do that, but i'm gonna.

10) Why don't you have kids?
- Because kids are the DEBIL. I'm kidding!! They are the DEBIL incarnate. =)

That's all for now, folks! If I missed YOUR question, there's always NEXT TIME!

Broken promises...

Ok, so this one post a day thing should have never been a promise. So, I am changing it to a GOAL. LOL.

Obligatory blogs are no fun for me or my readers, so I will blog ONLY when the feeling hits me.

Right now, I am EXHAUSTED...yet euphoric. So, i'm gonna drift off into SleepLand whilst having the best thoughts a girl can have...

Please continue to utilize the contact me link below, or message me on any of the sites listed down there as well.

Be content...

Situations are usually the way they are for a reason. It is only when we decide to interfere with the natural flow of things that we tend to find ourselves disappointed. If we would simply enjoy the ride or go with the flow, most times we'd find ourselves quite content. I've learned (recently) that no matter how much something may seem to be right for me, the truth of the matter is...if it WERE right for me...it WOULD be in effect. I am and have always been an instant-gratification kind of person. I want the right here, right now. It's hard for me to wait things out, but even harder for me to know that something I want...I may never get. BUT, as I mature and evolve, my understanding that you can't always get whatcha want comes more so into play and I'm able to deal with that. It's the OC (only child) mentality of it all that causes me the most difficulties.

In other news, I have NO PLANS for tonight. I have NO DESIRE to walk the uber cold streets of Las Vegas with a bunch of drunk folks that I don't know. I have no desire, either to walk the uber cold streets of Las Vegas with folks that I DO know. I'm working today, and i'm working 2morrow. How much fun could I possibly have anyway without being DOG tired??? So that settles that.

Mojitos, MaiTye and the immediate fam. That'll do.

But to you and yours, I wish you a FUN and SAFE New Year...enjoy and be f*ckin' merry!

No blog today...just a VLog

Happy New Year, everyone!!

Enjoy the VLog...

http://www.livevideo.com

She should have picked Dani!!

So Dani from Tila Tequila's "A Shot at Love" will be in Vegas tonight!!

Where?
CANDYBAR @ Krave Nightclub.

I'm not sayin' i'm goin' or anything....*cough*

But I doooo love me some Dani! So I thought i'd do a promo for her, ya know?

Maybe i'll see you there? LOL...Maybe NOT. Guess you'd have to be there to know, huh?

It's like that, and that's the way it is?

Sometimes we find ourselves in situations that are so satisfying that we become infatuated with them. And since infatuation is usually first experienced as a child/teen, experiencing it as an adult can make us feel vulnerable. Vulnerability can then lead to self-doubt which could eventually lead us to either consciously or subconsciously cause the aforementioned situation to abruptly end.

It is in these instances that my belief in FATE is justified.

This everyday thing is harder than it looks...

But I'm doing my best! Does that count?

How fast can it blossom?

Have you ever wondered why or how some friendships or relationships can blossom so very quickly in a limited amount of time? What I mean is, have you ever had a friendship/relationship go into overdrive in a matter of a couple of months? So much so that you question yourself? Like "whyyy the F*CK am I so connected to this person that I (technically speaking) barely even know?"

Well, what i've found in my dealings with these types of friendships/relationships is: It's all about the amount and quality of TIME spent...as opposed to just the TIME spent. Yes, this WILL make sense...I promise. In addition to the amount of time/"TIME" aspect of it all, what else comes into play is what you have been thru or shared with that person. If you meet someone during a bank robbery, and you guys are both hostages for 17 hours...you may have a deeper connection to that person than say...Leroy, your mom's best friends kid that you may have played with for years and years. Why? Because you're connected...in a totally different way.

Let's take for example, a situation of my own: A little over 5 years ago...I was staying somewhere that will remain nameless. And this place...was kinda like, a place that I couldn't leave...for about 3 months. So, of course there were other inhabitants of said place and I connected with one or two. One in particular, shared a special connection with me...and because we saw each other EVERY SINGLE SOLITARY day for 3 months at 17 hours per day, our friendship/relationship was deeper than that of some of my lifelong friends. I'm sure the fact that we shared some very deep experiences in our time there, contributed to the fact that we were so close. And when we had to go our separate ways, it hurt like hell. I think about her...ALL THE TIME. But I do believe she was put into my life for a reason, and after it was fulfilled...she was taken away. And contrary to the emotions that come back in full effect when I think about her...i'm ok with that.

I guess the point of this blog...is moot. As are many of my rants, BUT...if you ever find yourself feeling just a little TOO connected to someone...don't question it. Just embrace it and understand that it's not a bad thing...and it may NOT last forever, so enjoy it while you can.

Merry X-Mas (again)

So, how was everyone's Christmas??

Really...?

That's awesome.

Mine? Welp...my dad ventured off to Cali to hang with his fam...And I was expecting my cousin to come down with my Grandma and Aunt today. Turns out my cousin had to go back to work sooner than expected, so that didn't happen. Hmph. (Thumbs down to cuzzo) Granny and aunt are still coming down this Thursday and that so happens to be the day that the husband is going out of town. Fair exchange? Absolutely. I think we need a break from each other anyway. =)

Moving along...what kind of wonderful foods did you guys indulge in today?

Oh wow...

That sounds delightful.

What did I have? Hmmm, for breakfast...there was Denny's. And for dinner, since I slept smoove thru lunch... Buffalo Wild Wings. You know I love the wings. I know, UBER traditional. MaiTye gets down with the getdown. Yep...so that's about it.

6 days left until Vegetarianism begins...

Merry Christmas

No blog yesterday...yeah, sorry! And a mighty short one today... Just wanted to wish everyone a Merry Christmas... Hope Santa brings you everything you hoped he would and uh...that's it. Peace out.

2007...Go on about your bizness...

I'm kind of ready for 2007 to be done with.

Not really sure why, but I just want it to be done with. I was talking to an old friend today about my upcoming move. (Not state-changing, just another residence...) I'm wanting to RENT a townhome or apartment and he suggested I BUY. Pish tosh, I am not buying SHIT in a town I can't promise will have me for very long. When I told him that I wasn't sure if Nevada is where I wanted to be...he asked the obvious. "Well, where do you want to be?"

Excellent question. Too bad I can't answer it just yet.

I certainly don't think I want to go back to Texas, even though I miss ALOT of my people somethin' terrible. But I don't know if this is where I wanna be either. Bah...damn sure don't want to move back to Cali because as much as I love the people there, it's just not the right place or PACE for me right now...

I really need to finish this book...REALLY. And I need to stop taking so many steps backwards instead of forward...Shit's not helping.

And contrary to the THREE, count em, THREE fish dreams that have been had by friends and family...there is NO BUN in MaiTye's oven and God knows that's how it should be.

I don't have the patience for that bullshit...and who knows if I ever will. I love the kids, ya know I do...but i'll be damned if I lock myself into a major commitment like that anytime soon. I'm still healing from the scars I got from jumping into this razor-filled bowl of commitment in August. But as usual, I digress. I guess it's been a crazy weekend. And while I spent a large portion of it, sleeping...The other portion contributed to this mess of crap spinnin' around in my dome.

In other news, all the gifts i'm buying for x-mas have been purchased. So glad that's over. Phewwww.

Until 2morrow...Later.

Reunited much?

You know how they say...if you love somethin' let it go...if it comes back, then blah blah blah...? (I'm drawing a blank on the actual saying right now...but you get the jist.)

In any case...that's some real talk right there.

And it's a small world that we live in.

SMALL. How small is it, Maitye?? I'll tell ya. So small that someone I fell out of touch with from HIGH SCHOOL...now lives like 2 streets over. WTF mayne?? Awesome.

P.S. I love MySpace ever so very much. It's better than reunion.com, classmates.com and all that other crap. FOR SURE!

Too tired

I'm way too tired to blog today...

Woke up at 5am and have been runnin' ever since...

So until 2morrow...

Smooches...

Baby MaiTye?

Hmmm...Someone asked me today if I wanted kids. That reminded me...I remember when I used to say HELL NAW.

Then at one point, I said...if I do, it would have to be more than one...at least two because with the exception of being spoiled ROTTEN...being an only child mostly sucked ass. Mostly.

Now...at 28, one year older than my mother was when she gave birth to me...I'm back to HELL NAW. Could be the fact that there was an infinite number of SQUEALING children tonight while we were out doing last minute shopping...or it just could be that I have no desire to use my lady-parts in such a manner. Hmph...

My first fiance had 3 children...that might have been the perfect situation...except he was a LOSER to the 78th degree...so we never made it past engagement-land. And here I am now...not WITH child but dealing with one on a regular basis.

That's wrong...Bad MaiTye.

So...yesterdays blog...

HA! Can I say HA!! @ the emails I got about yesterdays blog!? First off, I was NOT using SAT words...LOL! But in all seriousness...well as serious as one could be while blogging and listening to Josh Tobin...

I'm good. No really...that was a moment of reflection, and I'm not gonna do anything like that today. What I will say is that yesterdays blog was somewhat premonitory in nature. And that's all i'm gonna say about that...


MESSAGE!

Randomosity...

I am who I am because of where i've been.
So does that mean that who I will become is based on where i'm going?

If this is true...is it possible to take a quick detour?
I'm not happy with where i'm headed...at this very moment.

But this feeling, like other things lately...could change swiftly. I find myself riddled with doubt, confident with my decisions, only to again question myself and my motives. But who am I to question MYSELF? As if...

Is self-gratification really egocentric or is it something we should indulge in on the regular? What would the world be like if everyone was only concerned with doing what made THEM happy?

I tried to be the altruistic version of myself...and i'm still healing from the metaphorical 3rd degree burns. I'd say "never again" but we all know the old adage...NEVER say NEVER. And that's one of the realest things ever said...indeed.

From about 19 years of age and beyond...I've been told that "I've got game" and therefore am confident in my ability to recognize it...(Game recognize game) But sometimes...just sometimes...I allow myself to dismiss a blatant fabrication out of sheer SELFISHNESS...or maybe it's just selflessness. With the lack of stability in my thought process...I sometimes can't decipher between the two.

What does all this shit mean? I don't know...

But, I do know one thing...I'm sleepy...and going to bed.

MindF*cked

So...you know what's always been a major plus in my book? Mental stimulation.

It's crazy how one can go for so long without having a REAL conversation...and not even realize how long it's been until they are actually in the midst of one.

I was mindf*cked today...and I don't give two shits who knows it.

Turns out mindf*cking can mean a number of things...I did however check out several opinions on the meaning over at urbandictionary.com.

The following was the best and most accurate representation of how I'm using the word (slightly edited because apparently urban dictionary doesn't do spell or grammar checks):



Intense communication between people that generates as much chemical satisfaction as sexual intercourse, but without any physical contact.

"I played chess with John yesterday. It was soo nice, so complex...What a mindfuck. If my boyfriend understood chess he'd be jealous as hell"

New VLog today...

http://www.livevideo.com

Why am I a fudgesicle?

It's too damn cold. I shouldn't wake up with numb fingers. It's getting ridiculous now...

I understand it's Christmas time and all, but give me a damn break. I might as well be in Texas.

Hey, you know what I don't get? When people blog, and the blog only consists of lyrics to a song. I mean, do they really think someone is gonna sit there and read all that garbage?

Maybe they do...

I'm goin' to eat some breakfast. Before I freeze my ovaries off...or out. Since they are technically IN, right? Bah...you get the jist.

Mo Money, Mo Money

My cat just scratched the shit outta my left hand. *applies band-aids* She hates baths THAT MUCH. Ah well, she's fresh and clean now.

I'm tired. I worked today, and normally there are only four of us on Saturday, but we were one short and boy did it make a difference. EVERYONE needed prescriptions refilled today. Fuckers...My 90 days has officially passed as of Monday. I sure hope that means MO MONEY, MO MONEY, MO MONEY... This town sure doesn't pay as well as i'd like.

Anyhoo...I'm outta here for now.

So...I cut my own bangs

New Do' and New Specs...And I feel like a whole new ME!

This is was the easiest and most cost efficient makeover that I've ever had...EVER.